Why Frozen's "Let It Go" Is No Ordinary Song

Every time I listen to the song Let It Go from Disney's movie Frozen I feel emotional.  I would get a lump in my throat or my eyes would tear up.  The singer Idina Menzel does an amazing job of singing the song, but of course it's more than that,  so I started reflecting on it.  If you are not familiar with the song, here are the lyrics:

                                                                        "Let It Go"

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I’m the Queen.

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well, now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door

I don’t care
What they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway

It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all

It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me
I’m free

Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You’ll never see me cry

Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on

My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back,
The past is in the past

Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway

I think this is a tremendous message for all of us today, particularly girls and women.  This song is talking about dropping the facade and letting your true self come through.  How many girls out there were taught to be quiet, good, obedient and don't ruffle any feathers?  I was that girl too.  

I love that my little girls love this song.  And every time it's played and we sing it, it helps all of us to be true to ourselves and not abide by rules of what we "should" be.  

In the movie, once Elsa (the character who sings the song in the movie) overcomes her fear, she learns to love.  And she realizes love could harness her power.  Once we let it go, we will realize our true power inside.  And I want all the little girls out there to let it go and be free, and be one with wind and sky.  

The Ghost in My Basement

I never really liked to go to the basement by myself, especially at night.  In general, basements and attics give me the creeps.  I have a theory that ghosts (spirits stuck on earth) or souls (spirits that can come and go) like to go to these areas of the house.  Maybe they don't want to be bothered?  Who knows.  That explanation makes more sense for ghosts rather than souls.

Over the years I have discovered that I could feel other spirits' presence.  It's like you know that you are not alone but that other person is invisible!  Sometimes it can make me uncomfortable.  I am OK with knowing they are there but I usually send a silent message not to show themselves.  I think this also explains why I was so afraid of the dark as a child.  I believe I was feeling those spirits and it freaked me out.

I could feel that there was presence in my basement.  But I had no idea who it was.  Recently I figured it out.  But you have to hear the back story first...

Last Christmas my sister came to visit with her family.  She brought her dog with her.  They put his crate in the basement and then asked him to come down the stairs.  He just stood at the top of the stairs and barked and whined. My sister said he usually doesn't act like that.   I thought to myself, uh oh. Maybe he's picking up on the spirit that I was sensing as well? Eventually we coaxed him downstairs and he never fussed again.  But that event stayed with me.

Recently I took a Tarot class with medium/shaman Joy Andreasen.  In our second class, we were discussing dreams.  She said that sometimes you dream about a person because they are actually thinking of you.  Sometimes I dream about random people that I know, and wonder why am I dreaming of them.  Before we met for our last class, I dreamed of Patrick Swayze.  And no, I had not watched any Patrick Swayze movies or heard any music form Dirty Dancing lately.  I dreamed that he and I were in a relationship and we were walking around Los Angeles.  And Patrick was very unhappy.  We went to place to place and after a while, I turned to him and said, "You know why you are unhappy?  Because this place does not fit your values."  When I woke up I thought, why in the world am I dreaming of Patrick Swayze?

So I posed this question to Joy who said she believed I actually had a soul connection with Patrick Swayze in the dream.  Then she asked me if I had dreamed of others who passed.  I said, yes, all the time.  I thought everybody did, but I have since learned that this is not common.  She told me that she believed I had mediumship abilities and that she could help me with this.  How could I turn down an opportunity like that?

That night several things happened to me to remind me why I didn't want to communicate with "ghosts." My husband was out of town so I was already nervous about sleeping alone.  I don't know why I feel this way but he's like my security blanket.  Anyway, I went down to a utility closet in the basement and as I entered I saw a flash of movement behind me and to the left.  Then I paused and thought "child girl."  I thought hmmm I think I will leave the basement now!

As I was getting my daughters ready for bed that night I was taking care of my toddler while my seven year old was in her room.  My seven year old comes to me and says, "Mommy I heard a sound.  It sounded like a child but I know it wasn't my sister."  Now I am freaking out even more...my daughter didn't give me any other details and she couldn't imitate the sound.  I decided to drop the subject so my daughter wouldn't be afraid as well.

Later on the same night, I was journaling and I heard an exhalation.  I stopped writing and knew it was the same spirit I saw earlier and that my daughter heard.  Needless to say I slept with the light on that night!  I also emailed  Joy with my concerns.  She told me I can learn how to turn off the communication at will.

During my first mediumship class with Joy, I connected with three departed souls.  The last soul I connected with was a little blond girl around the age of seven named Mary.  Joy guided me to ask her questions, like how did she die?  When I received an answer, it wasn't like I heard it.  It's more like I "know" the answer with my thoughts or I would see an image and describe the image.  I was not unfamiliar with this because I experienced this "knowing" when I did the past life regression (see second blog post). She communicated that she died in an accidental drowning in Goose Creek in Leesburg, VA.  This location is not far from my house.  So I determined that she must be the spirit that was visiting my house!  I asked out loud and to Joy that I didn't sense her being stuck here.  And Joy felt she was just a spirit that liked to visit.  I also "knew" that she liked to visit and she especially liked my older daughter.  She seem to be attached to me as well.  I suddenly knew that this spirit and I had a past life connection, I was actually her mother in a past life!

A day later I had another realization.  Last fall I had a physic reading with Dennis Jackson over the telephone.  He asked me if I had three children.  I told him I had only two.  He said that there was a third soul waiting to be born to me.  He said it didn't have to happen because we have free will.  I just felt touched there was another soul who wanted to be born as my child.  But I definitely don't want to have anymore children.

I now know that this third child is Mary.  This is the wonderful thing about the spirit world.  It's like putting the puzzle pieces together.  The Divine leaves little clues around until you figure it out.

Proving Reincarnation is Real

I have believed in reincarnation for a long time.  It didn't make sense to me that we would have one life, die and then there was nothing.  Like what's the point of that?  If there is a purpose to all of this, then wouldn't we keep coming back?  Over and over again I kept hearing that Earth was like spiritual boot camp.  So we kept returning and kept learning lessons.  Hopefully we become enlightened enough to stop.  At least that's my hope.  

So last June, I decided to find a regression hypnotherapist.  This is a person trained to hypnotize you so that you have the ability to remember your past lives.  I had already read several books by Dr. Brian Weiss on past life regression. According to his website, Dr. Weiss, a traditional psychotherapist, was "astonished and skeptical when one of his patients began recalling past-life traumas that seemed to hold the key to her recurring nightmares and anxiety attacks. His skepticism was eroded, however, when she began to channel messages from “the space between lives,” which contained remarkable revelations about Dr. Weiss’s family and his dead son. Using past-life therapy, he was able to cure the patient and embark on a new, more meaningful phase of his own career."

I searched the internet and found Dr. Esther Iseman in Reston, VA.  She is a licensed marriage and family therapist, a certified clinical therapist and trained in regression therapy. I thought great!  She sounded perfect.  So I went ahead and made an appointment.  I had to make a two hour appointment. The first hour was devoted to getting to know me and the second hour we did the regression.  She asked me to come with a question that I wanted answered.  My question was, "Why do I have chronic neck and shoulder pain?"  I have had this pain since I was about 11 years old.  I have been going to chiropractors since I was in my early twenties to alleviate this pain, which never really goes away.  Of course there were several car accidents that might explain why I have this back pain but I was curious to know if this was related to a past life.  Dr.  Weiss firmly believes that if we can trace a current issue to a past life that issue can be healed.  Well I think does work for some people, but it is not as simple as it sounds.  

I had my doubts about being able to be hypnotized.  I remember watching one of Oprah's old shows where an entire audience was hypnotized.  I thought, come on really?  How can a whole group of people be hypnotized at once?  I just didn't get it.  That's why I wanted to try it myself.  

The night before my appointment I couldn't sleep.  I was nervous.  What if it didn't work?  I already knew that I was an old soul.  I was hoping that this information would help my back problems.  

So I sat on a small couch and closed my eyes and relaxed.  I was listening to her voice, and trying to focus and concentrate.  She told me that, as she guided me to relax, my body would feel heavy.  But I was totally aware of everything.  I could hear the hum of the air condition through the vent.  She was telling me to imagine numbers flowing into a cloud, and the more the numbers entered the cloud the darker the cloud got.  I was having a hard time with this.  I had a hard time picturing the numbers.  I really did want to do my best so I focused as much as I could.  You know when you close your eyes and you can see yellow and red though your eyelids?  I saw that the whole time.  

I remember Dr. Iseman said, let's go to a life that will answer Tina's question.  She had me walk down stairs and through doors and then she told me, look at your feet.  All of a sudden I could see my feet.  I was wearing beige leather sandals.  She asked me to look down at my body and tell her what I was wearing.  I was wearing a long toga-like dress.  And I could see my hair, it was long and dark and curly.  In my mind, I was in awe.  But I kept my focus because I wanted to know where this led me.  

While hypnotized, I thought I would be able to see like I could in my dreams.  But this was different.  It was less clear, almost out of focus.  But I knew all the answers to her questions! I simply had to think of the question and the answer would pop up!  I saw images, almost like pictures.  Where a dream is more like a video this was more like a slideshow.  But not even like that.  She would ask a question and sometimes I would see the image as an answer.  

She asked me how old I was and I said 20.  She asked me my name and I told her Maria.  I told her I was happy and single and I had a boyfriend--who is my husband in this life (I found this realization amusing even as I said it)!  She asked me when was this life and I said 1200 BC.  Then all of sudden I was in a dark cave.  I felt scared!  The emotions were so real and I was panicking.  I started crying and she told me I wasn't there anymore and that I am safe now.  She told me to rise above the scene and observe what is happening.  I was alone in a dark cave and I saw a large animal, a bear.  I was trapped!  And the bear killed me with several powerful swipes of its paws, including at my neck and right shoulder.  

Someone once said that you can't fake emotions.  And the emotions I felt were real.  And so it proved me that this life was real.  

Dr. Iseman told me to bury this pain so it would not affect me anymore.  Did my back improve after this?  I would say that it did but it did not eliminate the pain totally.  I still have back pain.  And I have identified other past lives that have something to do with this back pain but I won't get into that right now.  That's another blog post :)

For days after the regression I felt so sad and tired.  I felt sad for Maria in that cave and the absolute terror that she felt.  I couldn't shake the sadness for days.  I felt like I was mourning for her.  Eventually these feelings went away.  

Although I have proved to myself that past lives are real, I don't think I will ever be regressed again.  The emotions were so overwhelming.  There are other ways to remember your past lives via meditations or psychic readings.  I have chosen to remember in other ways now.  So far I have chronicled 39 past lives.  This Saturday I will be going to an all day conference led by Dr. Brian Weiss in New York City.  I am sure I will remember many more lives to add to my list.  

Hello welcome to the Healing Light blog!

Welcome to my blog.  I have been struggling for a long time trying to decide whether to start a blog or not.  You see, the topics I will be discussing will be unconventional spiritual topics.  A lot of people are discussing these type of topics on the Internet but there is a big difference between someone else doing it and me doing it.

Anyway I feel the push to do it.  My soul group is the Artisan group and what we specialize in art and communication (if you would like to read more about your soul group, read the book Welcome to the Fifth Dimension: The Quintessence of Being, the Ascended Masters' Ultimate Secret by Bianca Gaia). So blogging is a form of communication.  So far I have only told my close friends and family about my spiritual beliefs...and even some of them have a hard time listening :)  That's OK.  This blog is going to push you to think in a whole new way.  What I will discuss on this blog might shock you, it might make you mad or it might make you happy.  You will probably react with all kinds of emotions.  Believe me I have been through them all myself.  But the key for me, and others like me (ie lightworkers) is that we have to spread the word.  If we communicate, others will start thinking about these topics too or maybe researching it for themselves.  It will spark action in others and it will spread like wildfire throughout the world.

So what exactly am I going to be discussing here?  The topics that I love: reincarnation, angels, the law of attraction, synchronicity, karma, ascension into the 5th dimension, ancient civilizations and their technology, right brain technology, feminine power, energy exchange etc.  I actually have so much to say that I am unsure how to start!  Everyday I realize things and learn.  And I will share it all with you on this blog.

So I will start by telling you about me.  I grew up in Manhattan with an American father and a Filipino mother.  My father was an atheist and my mother was Catholic.  Both my sister and I spend some years in Catholic school.  The God that I learned about growing up was vengeful and apparently punished those that sinned.  By the time I turned 14, I rejected this whole idea of God.  In fact I rejected the Catholic religion and every other religion.  I realized that if God was going to punish me or my parents for something that I did, then I didn't want to believe in that God.  So I just stopped believing in God altogether.

My dad and I a few months before his death. 

Four years later my father passed away from a heart attack.  I was devastated.  His death was a shock to my entire family, especially me.  I was daddy's girl and I was lost without him.  I couldn't accept that he was gone.  I thought I was having a bad dream.  The worst dream I have ever had.  I had been away at boarding school when he got sick.  By the time I came home, he was already gone.  When I went back mt parents' apartment, I felt his energy so strongly.  It was amazing.  It was like he was still there. I could feel him there.  I was touching all his things, his clothes, the pan that remained on the kitchen stove.  I imagined him sitting on the couch.  I knew he was still with me.  And from that moment on I had to believe in an afterlife because I felt him.  And I had to believe in God because there was an afterlife.

Now I am all grown up and I have a family of my own.  I still have pangs for my daddy.  It still brings tears to my eyes when I think about how much I miss him.  But his death allowed God back in my life. What a gift that was!  It took me 40 years to get to that realization.

Last year I met with a psychic Steven Gelt for the first time.  I had never met with anyone like that.  I was worried he might be fake.  I was afraid I wouldn't be able to tell the difference between an authentic psychic and a fake one.  A good friend of mine recommended me to him and I trusted her.  I was hoping beyond hope I was going to finally talk to my dad.  My heart fell when Steven told me he didn't like to give messages from passed relatives.  Anyway, the subject came up.  And I was lucky because he allowed my father to come through.  I was so incredibly happy!!!  Steven was correct 99% of the time.  It was amazing.  So this experience was the door that opened all the other doors.

It is amazing what has happened to me since then.  It's been quite an adventure actually.  And that's what I am going to share with you in this blog.  Everything that I have learned since then.  And I hope you join me this journey of discovery :)

A note about comments.  Right now my comments are open.  However, I ask you stay positive when commenting.  If you doubt something or disagree with something, say so.  But I encourage you to ask questions, lots of questions.  I may not have all the answers, but I will try to answer.  And certainly share your stories.  Maybe something I write about resonates with you.  Please share your experience!