Helping Humans and Spirits

When I first discovered that I had the gift of mediumship six months ago, I pictured myself helping others with this gift.  Perhaps I would connect a person with a loved one who passed and finally offer them a sense of peace.  But I have to come to realize that there is an unexpected bonus to mediumship, not only do I help people who are in the physical, but I can help spirits.  I am going to share a story with you where I did just that.

As a Reiki practitioner, I connect to spirit while at the same time channel the Universal Life Force of Reiki to help heal my clients.  After several attempts to reserve an appointment, I finally booked a Reiki session with a young mother of two.  Before I started the Reiki session, I always sit down with my clients and get a feel for where they are emotionally, physically and spiritually.  I also make sure they know that I can receive messages from Spirit during Reiki and that they are comfortable with that. My client was comfortable with this so we proceeded.

Almost immediately I sensed a male presence, who was her brother who passed away as a result of an overdose.  She told me that she had been sensing him for years since his death.  She would see shadows or literally he would throw items across a room to get her attention.  Her only hope was to speak to him again and now she had the opportunity.

He told me that his death was accidental.  He felt some remorse over this.  I kept getting the word twins although they were close in age, they were not twins.  After one hour of communication with him, I closed the session.  My client had been crying the entire session.  She told me she felt better and felt that she had closure.

That evening as I lay in my bed trying to fall asleep I felt distracted by a presence in my room.  This is not new as higher spiritual beings often try to communicate with me when I am falling asleep (sometimes they even wake me up in the middle of the night).  Well I was tired and in no mood to communicate so I said whoever it is, go away.  But my request didn't work.  So then I asked Archangel Michael to take away any spirits or beings because I wanted to sleep.  Then it worked!

The next day, I went for a walk around my neighborhood and I could not stop thinking about my client's brother.  I knew something was up, because it's not like me to think of someone who I never knew and really, has no meaning in my life.  I knew that he was with me and I was not sure how to get rid of him.

Ok, now I am trying not to freak out.

Because I am new to this I consulted my mentor and a fellow intuitive friend for advice.  My mentor said to tell him to go away until I am ready to talk to him during another Reiki session with his sister. My friend told me that I should talk to him, because once he delivers his message he will go away.

All right.  Fine!

So I sat in meditation and it was like he was literally hovering over me.  I asked him what he wanted. I felt an overwhelming sadness.  He started telling me how sad he was, how much he missed being physical on earth and how much he missed being with his sister.  I tried to console him by telling him he was in spirit world now and that the separation he was feeling was an illusion.  He can actually be with his sister whenever he wants to.   But this approach didn't work.

I was racking my brain on why he was having such a hard time.  Then I thought twins!  I asked him if his sister was his twin soul.  He said yes.  No wonder!  Twin souls or twin flames have a special connection.  They are considered each other's half: the feminine aspect and the male aspect of a soul. When they are incarnate together, which is rare, they often act like twins, reading each other's minds etc.

Now it made sense why he was having such a hard time letting her go.  I instinctively felt he needed more healing so I told him this and asked him if he wanted me to help him.  As tears ran down his face, he said yes.  I immediately asked Archangel Raphael, the Archangel of healing to come and help him.  I saw Raphael arrive, put his arm around him and swoop him up into the sky.  I knew that Raphael was taking him to a special healing place in the spirit world, a sort of hospital for those souls who were not adapting well in the spirit realm.  And I sensed he was gone.

I immediately contacted his sister to tell her what happened.  She seemed concerned that she would no longer be able to sense him or even ask him for protection, as she often did.  I told her it would be temporary and when he returned, she would know.  She said for the first time since his death, she felt peace and felt like a heaviness of sadness had been lifted off her.  I knew that this sadness came from her brother and it was gone now that he was receiving the help he needed.

If I could only convey to you how amazing I felt after this experience.  When I help a soul, whether they are incarnate or not, it makes my soul sing!  It confirms to me that I am doing the right thing and finally living my life purpose.

Life is Miraculous

Today I was driving around town and had this thought: life is miraculous.  It really is.  Ever since I realized there was a whole another world out there aka the Spirit world, I have never been the same. Once I understood that nothing is random, I pay attention to everything.  Believing this latter concept help me understand that the thoughts, feelings and images that popped in my head meant something.  Up until a year ago I wasn't paying attention to this information.  Now I do and I have become so much wiser and happier because of it.  Not only does it help me, but now I can help others with this information.

Right now the world is changing at a breakneck speed.  You either are aware of it aka "awake" or you are not aka "asleep" or somewhere in between.   How about you?  Are you awake or are you asleep? Today I pulled this card for a client of mine.

There are a group of beautiful unicorns in a forest.  The one in the middle is awake and the rest of the unicorns are asleep.  This card symbolizes the world today.  There are a few who are awake but most people are asleep.  Now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with the people who are asleep and those that are awake or not "better" than others.  There is no better or worse just experience, different simultaneous experiences.  

When you are awake you realize the following things:

1. The physical world is an illusion and the real world is the spirit world and all the beings within it : passed relatives; angels; Archangels; Ascended Masters like Jesus, Mother Mary or Ghandi; Goddesses like Isis or Aphrodite; unicorns, fairies, elves and other spiritual beings.  
2. These spiritual beings constantly give you messages (like love notes) by leaving coins on the ground, feathers, arranging coincidences, showing you the same numbers over and and over again etc.  
3. When you notice these little things they start to add up.  I have a new friend who is absolutely befuddled that she keeps seeing feathers everywhere.  Of course, these are the angels.  
4. These little "love notes"  are little miracles, they are a reminder to you of who you really are: you are a soul having a human experience.  Your soul is the real you, the wise you, and the one who is aware of your constant connection with the Spirit realm.  
5. In the end, all these little messages add up to a miraculous day and then a miraculous life.  

So do you want to see signs too?  Look for them, they are all around you!  Did you see an unusual animal or insect, look up its meaning as an animal totem.  Did you find a penny on the ground?  Look at the year on it, does it match the year a loved one passed?  It's a message from them that they are OK and they are thinking of you!  Found a feather on your bathroom floor?  Thank the angel who you left it there for you.  Keep seeing the same numbers over and over again on clocks, receipts and license plates? Look up their angel number meanings.  

Because I am always looking for signs, my life has become miraculous.  Everyday is a fun adventure. The "coincidences" can be so funny!  And seeing them and noticing them makes me feel loved and taken care of.  Because I am loved and you are too.  

If you would like to connect with passed loves ones, learn the names of your guardian angels or simply need guidance on life, I can get the answers you want by connecting with Spirit via Tarot and/or Reiki. Please email me if you would like a reading.  

Feel free to comment on this post if you have noticed little messages or love notes that were left for you.  

Understanding Past Lives

For the past year I have been trying different ways to learn about my past lives.  I have believed in reincarnation for a long time.  I could simply not believe in the alternative, which would be one life and that's it.  That didn't make sense to me at all.  We have one life?  Why?  Why not more?  What would be the point of one life?  Plus there is so much evidence to the contrary, such as near death experiences or that precious little boy who saw Jesus in the book, and now TV movie, called Heaven is Real. Recently a little boy remembered how he was murdered in a previous life, you can read about it here.

My first exposure to reincarnation was Buddhist philosophy.  I learned that Buddhists believe that all life is precious, including an insect.  So you shouldn't deliberately step on a bug.  I used to laugh at this especially since I am not fond of bugs.  But now that I have evolved spiritually, I actually think twice!  I ask myself, is it necessary to kill that bug?  Or can I somehow find a way to get it outside?  In fact, I recently did this with a centipede I found in my home.  Sometimes it's unavoidable, when the annual parade of ants enters my kitchen after a rainstorm.  But now, it's not so easy for me to kill them.

When I first learned about Hinduism, they taught that if you were bad in one life, you could be reincarnated as something horrendous, like a slug.  I thought that was an interesting concept, but this didn't resonate with me and sounded like the angry God of Catholicism, so I quickly moved on.

In the past year I have read numerous books on reincarnation, especially information gathered from regression hypnosis from authors like Dr. Brian Weiss, Lois Wetzel or Dolores Cannon.  Up until this point, my simple concept of reincarnation was this:  a soul was contained in a body, when that body died the soul would leave and eventually would occupy another body.  The soul came here to learn lessons or to relearn lessons or make up for mistakes made in past lives.

Here was my problem, if God was perfect and we were made in the image of her than why were we so imperfect? Why do we even have to learn lessons? The answer is the soul is perfect but we forget that we are when we are born in the physical in order to experience life for God and experience who we really are at any given moment.  In fact, I recently learned that a soul is so huge and the vibration so large that it can not be contained in one body, it is more like an enormous energy field.  With this fact in mind, and the fact there is no such thing as time and everything is happening right now, our soul could be having hundreds, perhaps thousands (like I have been told in readings) of lives all at the same time!

In addition, every thought and decision we make (and the various options/consequences) creates a parallel universe where that option is played out!  For example, today I decided to lay out in my yard instead of go to the pool.  But there is a Tina who in a parallel universe that plays out what happened when I go to the pool instead of stay in my yard.

Did I lose you yet?

Let me give you a specific example from my life where I remembered a "past" life that is affecting my "present" one. In fact, in this case my past self is aware of my present self but not vice versa.   I have had neck and shoulder pain since I was child. There was not one thing that triggered it, it just started when I was 11.  By the time I was a teenager, I was trying to sleep on the floor because I thought the crappy beds in my boarding school were hurting my back.  I have been to countless chiropractors and physical therapists.  I have taken a ton of Advil. Dr. Weiss and most other past life regressionists, propose that healing can come from remembering past lives, sometimes very quickly.  So I have tried to remember what they are through hypnosis, meditation or intuitive readings by others.  So far (get ready it's gruesome) I have been mauled by a bear, had my head chopped off, been stoned to death and wore a heavy ibis mask as a Thoth priest in ancient Egypt.  So far remembering these lives has not gotten rid of the back pain for good.

Last weekend I saw my mentor and multi-talented spiritual medium, Shaman and Reiki Master Joy.  I asked her to help me resolve this pain, what else do I need to know?  What else do I need to heal?  She gave me Reiki and had a vision of me as a slave girl with some sort of farming contraption on my shoulders and I was pulling it through earth, like a horse would. She said that this girl is aware of me in my present life and she resents me because she feels like I have an easy life and that she could never be happy. So Joy talked with her to convince her that she could drop that contraption from her shoulders and she no longer needs to carry it, that she can be happy too. She said there was also a fear that once you are happy, it will not last (Joy said every time I have that thought, my back pain may show up again). I admitted that I also felt this way, more so in the past. There is also a future part of myself that is afraid that the happiness won’t last either. So she pulled these two parts of myself into my present body and my angels advised me to “have faith.” Hopefully this will do the trick, otherwise I am open to learning more, and open to further healing.

Today I was thinking about that little slave girl. I want her to know that, in her honor, I will do my best to be happy, and to take nothing for granted. And I remind myself, to not view life as a burden, but a source of joy and happiness.  Release your burden little one, and enjoy life with me!

The Ghost in My Basement

I never really liked to go to the basement by myself, especially at night.  In general, basements and attics give me the creeps.  I have a theory that ghosts (spirits stuck on earth) or souls (spirits that can come and go) like to go to these areas of the house.  Maybe they don't want to be bothered?  Who knows.  That explanation makes more sense for ghosts rather than souls.

Over the years I have discovered that I could feel other spirits' presence.  It's like you know that you are not alone but that other person is invisible!  Sometimes it can make me uncomfortable.  I am OK with knowing they are there but I usually send a silent message not to show themselves.  I think this also explains why I was so afraid of the dark as a child.  I believe I was feeling those spirits and it freaked me out.

I could feel that there was presence in my basement.  But I had no idea who it was.  Recently I figured it out.  But you have to hear the back story first...

Last Christmas my sister came to visit with her family.  She brought her dog with her.  They put his crate in the basement and then asked him to come down the stairs.  He just stood at the top of the stairs and barked and whined. My sister said he usually doesn't act like that.   I thought to myself, uh oh. Maybe he's picking up on the spirit that I was sensing as well? Eventually we coaxed him downstairs and he never fussed again.  But that event stayed with me.

Recently I took a Tarot class with medium/shaman Joy Andreasen.  In our second class, we were discussing dreams.  She said that sometimes you dream about a person because they are actually thinking of you.  Sometimes I dream about random people that I know, and wonder why am I dreaming of them.  Before we met for our last class, I dreamed of Patrick Swayze.  And no, I had not watched any Patrick Swayze movies or heard any music form Dirty Dancing lately.  I dreamed that he and I were in a relationship and we were walking around Los Angeles.  And Patrick was very unhappy.  We went to place to place and after a while, I turned to him and said, "You know why you are unhappy?  Because this place does not fit your values."  When I woke up I thought, why in the world am I dreaming of Patrick Swayze?

So I posed this question to Joy who said she believed I actually had a soul connection with Patrick Swayze in the dream.  Then she asked me if I had dreamed of others who passed.  I said, yes, all the time.  I thought everybody did, but I have since learned that this is not common.  She told me that she believed I had mediumship abilities and that she could help me with this.  How could I turn down an opportunity like that?

That night several things happened to me to remind me why I didn't want to communicate with "ghosts." My husband was out of town so I was already nervous about sleeping alone.  I don't know why I feel this way but he's like my security blanket.  Anyway, I went down to a utility closet in the basement and as I entered I saw a flash of movement behind me and to the left.  Then I paused and thought "child girl."  I thought hmmm I think I will leave the basement now!

As I was getting my daughters ready for bed that night I was taking care of my toddler while my seven year old was in her room.  My seven year old comes to me and says, "Mommy I heard a sound.  It sounded like a child but I know it wasn't my sister."  Now I am freaking out even more...my daughter didn't give me any other details and she couldn't imitate the sound.  I decided to drop the subject so my daughter wouldn't be afraid as well.

Later on the same night, I was journaling and I heard an exhalation.  I stopped writing and knew it was the same spirit I saw earlier and that my daughter heard.  Needless to say I slept with the light on that night!  I also emailed  Joy with my concerns.  She told me I can learn how to turn off the communication at will.

During my first mediumship class with Joy, I connected with three departed souls.  The last soul I connected with was a little blond girl around the age of seven named Mary.  Joy guided me to ask her questions, like how did she die?  When I received an answer, it wasn't like I heard it.  It's more like I "know" the answer with my thoughts or I would see an image and describe the image.  I was not unfamiliar with this because I experienced this "knowing" when I did the past life regression (see second blog post). She communicated that she died in an accidental drowning in Goose Creek in Leesburg, VA.  This location is not far from my house.  So I determined that she must be the spirit that was visiting my house!  I asked out loud and to Joy that I didn't sense her being stuck here.  And Joy felt she was just a spirit that liked to visit.  I also "knew" that she liked to visit and she especially liked my older daughter.  She seem to be attached to me as well.  I suddenly knew that this spirit and I had a past life connection, I was actually her mother in a past life!

A day later I had another realization.  Last fall I had a physic reading with Dennis Jackson over the telephone.  He asked me if I had three children.  I told him I had only two.  He said that there was a third soul waiting to be born to me.  He said it didn't have to happen because we have free will.  I just felt touched there was another soul who wanted to be born as my child.  But I definitely don't want to have anymore children.

I now know that this third child is Mary.  This is the wonderful thing about the spirit world.  It's like putting the puzzle pieces together.  The Divine leaves little clues around until you figure it out.