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Love and light to you all.
Stargazing Angel
My spiritual journey shared with you.
Wednesday, February 10, 2016
Wednesday, October 7, 2015
Embrace All That You Are: Interview with Denell Wehrly of Angelz Messages
SG
note: I found Denell through
her Etsy shop two years ago. I
recommended her readings to friends and one friend invited her to teach a local
workshop. We met then and hit it off
right away. We often confide in each
other because we both actively practice our spiritual gifts and we often exchange
readings with each other.
Denell’s gifts are amazing.
In her angel course she said she could see fairies in the plant in the
room. I thought that was amazing! Since then I have been able to connect to
fairies as well but for a while I thought I was going nowhere although she
assured me I was connecting. In the end,
it’s great that I can tell her anything and she won’t think I am crazy and vice
versa. In fact, we both think life is quite magical and fun!
SG:
Describe your business. How did you get
started?
I am an Angel Intuitive
offering a range of intuitive services from Oracle Card Readings to Reiki
Energy Healing as well as Past Life and Angel Healing Services. I have been an
Angel Intuitive since I was a baby though I didn’t actually realize this is what
it was until 2011. My strongest ability is channeling and I have been doing this
since I was old enough to write. At the end of 2011 after meeting several soul
family members I opened my Etsy shop and things really took off. As my quest
for more and more knowledge continues I take classes and read constantly to
update myself on the newest practices and how to incorporate new services into
my business. I have been so blessed in
finding great friends who not only support me in this but also allow me to teach
and even more importantly, be taught by others every single day. My soul
reverberates with joy with each new client and each healing I provide to
others.
SG: When
was the first time you realized you were different spiritually?
I always knew I was different
from others, I remember seeing and speaking to spirits and angels as a very
young child. However, I kept it quiet because I was raised in a very strict
family and it was not something you ever spoke of. As I hit my teen years the
spirits faded away but even in elementary school I remember the timed journal
writing and I loved this part of school while everyone else seemed to dread it.
I would have five pages written by the end and I would look around and everyone
else had a sentence or two. I never felt
like I quite fit in anywhere, especially with people – I realize now I was
always searching for that soul connection with others and I did not find that
until 2010 when I met my best friend and a few other soul family members.
SG:
When was the first time you decided to find out what your gifts were and how to
use them?
In 2011 my best friend and I
were both practicing Astral Travel and Dreamwalking: the most memorable first
experience was when my best friend called me up and asked if I was okay, I was
confused because nothing un-ordinary had happened that day. She explained that
she had seen me in her room even though at the time we lived 3,000 miles away
from each other; she on the east coast and I on the west. She said it was like
I was really there, talking to her though she could tell I was in Spirit form.
This was the first time I had successfully astral traveled and I had not even
realized I was doing it. Earlier that day I had been daydreaming about exactly
what happened in her room. Later, my angels confirmed that I am a natural
astral traveler and I visit the spirit world and loved ones almost every night
and even during the day while I am doing mundane things. I was amazed and continued to practice this
amazing skill until I could do it at will.
SG:
If you could give advice to your younger self/child about your gifts, what
would you say?
To embrace all that you are and
all that you will become, you are unique, blessed and loved so much. Seek out
those who embrace your uniqueness, that you feel connected to and never let
anyone make you think negatively about yourself. You are special and your gifts
are needed on the planet at this time. You are a healer, heal yourself and you
heal the world.
SG:
What advice would you give to someone who just realized their spiritual gifts?
Embrace and develop your
intuition, it will be your greatest asset! Keep reading, find spiritual friends
who will support you – they will become your family – never stop learning!
Connect daily with your guides and angels for they have important information
for you. Meditation and Yoga will help you balance your life and most of all
never forget that you are the most important person in your life, take care of
yourself so you can help others!
SG:
What part of your gift is your favorite and why? What is your least favorite and why?
My favorite gift is Oracle
Reading, I love the cards and the positive messages they bring. Their vibration
is so high and full of light and love. The best part of this gift is helping
others, especially, when they feel like all hope is lost and it’s the end of
their world. The cards and messages give them renewed hope, strength and faith
that they are not alone, that the Universe is one of pure love.
My least favorite gift is working
with Spirits because they do not follow the same rules as Angels and Guides,
they still have ego and free will, they may or may not tell the truth about
things. This part of my gifts scare me in a certain way because I have seen my
own past lives where I was persecuted for my gifts when working with the spirit
world but also in that Spirits harmed me physically in previous incarnations
and even possessed me. In this incarnation I am very well protected and they
are unable to enter me but working with them alone is very scary for me and
something I have not completely overcome.
SG:
What is the funniest thing that happened to you regarding your gifts?
While spending time with my
best friend we discovered that our Spirit Guides are soul family and were married
thru several incarnations. Her guide is Marcus, a WWII hero who died in action
and I have Rebecca. While sitting near the fire talking late one night we were
laughing as Marcus entertained us with his pranks and antics around the house
as everyone else slept. He looked nervous as he continued to make us laugh and
a short while later we found out why, he was hiding from Rebecca. She never did
tell me what he did but she came through a wall like a ton of bricks headed
straight for him and he jumped up to the ceiling – I thought I was watching a
cartoon! He disappeared through the ceiling and all was quiet for a minute and
then he peeked his head through the wall near us making us both jump out of our
seats. We both swatted at him like we could actually touch him and he grinned
until Rebecca came storming through the living room. We watched them play hide
and seek through the walls for a good 15 minutes and we could not stop
laughing. It was hilarious!
SG:
Why do you think the Creator gave us these gifts? And what are we supposed to use them for?
I believe that before we
reincarnate we decide if we wish to use intuitive abilities in our life and if
it will serve our highest purpose and that of the planet at the designated
time. I believe in this incarnation I am using my gifts to help others who are
in desperate search of the light in the world today. Negativity crawls up every
crack in our society so is it any wonder many of us have a hard time in
clearing and cleansing ourselves of this? We are supposed to use our gifts to
help others, the planet, Mother Earth and to help those who are newer souls
heal wounds. New souls are often the ones we have a hard time getting along
with, they are most often criminals or dangerous addicts. They need our love and
healing just as much as other lightworkers do.
SG:
Why are we here?
We are here at this time to
keep advancing our souls. As an ancient soul I have seen some of my very first
incarnations which occurred at the beginning of the timeline when people lived
in caves and the earth was very dry and survival depended on your every action
and move. I can see just how far I have advanced personally and in the past
lives I have seen it is amazing what we can accomplish. The soul is a beautiful
thing but not something that ends, the physical body withers away but the soul
ascends and heals until it is ready to experience the beauty of life once
again.
SG:
What do you wish that people knew or understood the most about you?
It is a constant struggle I
endure as the only one who is spiritually minded in my family and extended
family. As they are all catholic and they buy into the fear induced
proclamations of the church and the world I wish they could or would try to
understand my point of view more. Fear is a powerful emotion and I wish to
eradicate that from those that I love but they see me as the black sheep with
unorthodox opinions and views which couldn’t possibly be correct. Fear is an
illusion our ego subjects us to in order to control us. However, I have to
remember they are on their path for a reason and I am on mine and betwixt the
two shall meet at some point, either here on this planet or in the Spirit
Realm.
SG:
What do you wish the world would know or understand?
I wish the world would know and
understand that Love is the only real entity in life. If we would all spend as
much time loving each other, assisting our neighbors and sending love to anyone
and everyone the world would be much more at peace. Each soul must live
according to their truth and there is no wrong truth. By living and breathing
in your own truth you allow your true nature to come forward and who you truly
are is what this world needs. Live your life for you in a way that brings joy
to you and let others do the same.
SG:
What do you envision the world will be like in the future?
At times, when I see the way the
government is run, I see in the future many spiritualists refuse to live in a
world with so little freedoms and expression. The more technology advances, the less humanized we become. I often see secluded villages of spiritualists
who live in harmony and peace with each other. Who help each other survive and
exchange energy and barter for necessities. They live in unity as one with
Mother Nature bringing back the old traditions of celebrating moon phases,
harvests, seasons, etc…When this happens I see them living far out in mother
nature … almost like a native American tribe or as the villages in Greece were
set up thousands of years ago. I can feel the beauty and peace of such places.
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Everyone Has a Gift: Maisha Hudson and Feminine Energy Alchemy
Maisha Hudson, Feminine Energy Alchemist |
I’ve known Maisha
since high school (so a LONG time). We
both attended a New England boarding school and we’re both from New York
City. Only in the past couple of years
have we realized that we spiritually have a lot in common.
She started her wellness career almost a decade ago as a
personal trainer and nutrition coach. She has helped hundreds of women lose weight
and live healthier lives. She was always excited to see their progress, and
honored to be involved in their transformations. Yet she knew something more
was needed. Changing the outside was one thing, but she knew many of her
clients really needed help with more internal changes like dealing with
emotional eating, or negative self-talk – areas I knew of from personal
experience.
Her mission and purpose is to help women reclaim the parts
of them that have been lost along the journey of life.
Maisha will be presenting in Atlanta on December 4-7th
at www.SacredSexualityRetreatAtlanta.com.
SG: When was the first time you realized you were different spiritually?
MH: Probably when I was around 6 or 7. I wanted to see/hear ghosts. Any book about ghosts or spirits I was interested in. I remember a Spirit speaking to me in school one day. Her name was Lisa. I thought I was going nuts because no one else was in the bathroom with me. I freaked out and ran out of the bathroom. I was always fascinated by telepathy and telekinesis. I used to do ‘yoga’ in my room – sit lotus style and say ‘ohm’ LOL. As I got older I found I could ‘tell’ when a song was on the radio that I really wanted to hear. I didn’t know what it was…just something I did.
MH: Probably when I was around 6 or 7. I wanted to see/hear ghosts. Any book about ghosts or spirits I was interested in. I remember a Spirit speaking to me in school one day. Her name was Lisa. I thought I was going nuts because no one else was in the bathroom with me. I freaked out and ran out of the bathroom. I was always fascinated by telepathy and telekinesis. I used to do ‘yoga’ in my room – sit lotus style and say ‘ohm’ LOL. As I got older I found I could ‘tell’ when a song was on the radio that I really wanted to hear. I didn’t know what it was…just something I did.
SG: When was the first time you decided to find out what your gifts
were and how to use them?
MH: In high school. I realized that
I was able to predict or ‘see’ things that others didn’t see. I was very
perceptive. A friend and I would practice strengthening that skill with playing
cards. We would try to guess which card the other had. I would also play around
with predicting songs on the radio. I got to the point where I knew when a
particular song was on. That was pretty cool. I also played with a Ouija board.
That was an interesting and powerful experience. My friends and I unknowingly
contacted a dark entity that actually attached itself to one of my friends for
years. We didn’t realize our energies could release something. I would not
recommend using a Ouija board – not without proper training by a high level
medium.
SG: If you could give advice to your younger self/child about your
gifts, what would you say?
MH: You’re not crazy. Yes, this
stuff is real. Practice it. Work on it. Accept it. You will meet others like
you as you get older.
SG: What advice would you give to someone who just realized their
spiritual gifts?
MH: Same as above. Also, read about
opening up your gifts, and meet up with others who are doing the same. The
gifts become stronger when we’re around similar people.
SG: What part of your gift is your favorite and why? What is your least favorite and why?
My psychic/intuitive ability is my
favorite. It’s also the easiest. I really enjoy being able to help others and
give them confirmation on situations/decisions to make in their lives. I love
knowing I can help them by giving them insight. Mediumship is my least favorite.
It’s come in more over the past year, and it’s frightening to me because it’s
new. I plan on studying it and developing it more though so the messages come
through clearer.
SG: What is the funniest thing that happened to you re: your gifts?
When I as 14, my friend and I (the
one who was practicing with me) worked at a summer job. We both liked the same
boy and would use our abilities to see where he would be. One day we were
waiting for the elevator. We felt like he was on one of the elevators and
indeed he was. He got off and we were both looking shocked (that we were right)
and embarrassed (because we had a huge crush on him lol). I think our faces
were red!
SG: Why do you think the Creator gave us these gifts? And what are we supposed to use them for?
To help others. To serve others. To
heal others.
SG: Why are we here?
To assist those on earth in their
own personal growth. To give warnings when necessary. To provide insight and
wisdom. To heal. To teach. To show.
SG: What do you wish that people knew/understood the most about you?
That I’m not making this stuff up!
LOL These gifts are REAL. And I’m not the only one who has them.
SG: What do you wish the world would know/understand?
That we ALL have gifts. It’s just a
matter of being open to the possibilities. Yes, it’s easier for some than for
others. But everyone has a gift of some sort.
SG: What do you envision the world will be like in the future?
I’m torn between what I hope it
will be like, and what I’ve seen. And it’s probably a combination of both. In
the future there will be a time when everyone is more conscious, more aware.
More people will be able to access their gifts. We will truly work together to
heal and grow. But before that……well…..it’s like giving birth. Right now we’re
gestating, but the birthing point will come, and it will feel uncomfortable. On
the other side of that will be a beautiful life. I just try and stay focused on
the end result.
Thursday, September 24, 2015
My First Blog Interview with Joy Andreasen, Psychic/Medium
Joy is a Spiritual Life Coach. Shamanic Practitioner, Author
and Tarot Reader. I met Joy in March
2014 when I signed up for her Tarot class.
While taking that class she helped me realize that I, too, had a mediumship
gift. Since then, she’s been my favorite
metaphysical teacher and she has trained me to be a Reiki Master, a shamanic
practitioner and she has helped me hone my mediumship skills. Her teaching style is unstructured and always guided by Spirit. She’s incredibly
funny and warm and I am proud to call her my friend.
SG: When was the first time you realized you were different?
JA: I always knew I was different. I always felt different and out of
place. I would see myself observing this
world like I was not actually part of this world. (Note from SG: a lot of lightworkers and people with
psychic and medium gifts feel out of place here on Earth. However, she is aware of her soul projecting
a piece of herself onto three dimensional Earth). I
feel like a character out of the movie Avatar, where I look through the eyes of
someone else. I knew that I wasn’t from
here.
In order to be present, I have to
focus on being in my body. I have always
been aware of the unity of life. I can connect with other living beings, plants
and animals.
SG: When was the first time you decided to find out what your gifts
were and how to use them?
JA: Because my dad was a preacher, I
thought I would grow up to marry a preacher and that would be my purpose in
life. When I grew older, I felt like
there should be more to life than marrying a preacher. I eventually switched to a church that
believed in prophecy and befriended a prophet.
I knew that I could hear Spirit but I didn’t believe in myself. The prophet helped me believe in myself.
SG: If you could give advice to your younger self about your gifts,
what would you say?
JA: Believe in yourself and believe
in the messages. Don’t be afraid to give
messages to people who have more power than you do. I always felt intimidated, even though I
challenged authority a lot. I went to a
year of Mennonite school and my beliefs were very different. I always challenged their beliefs.
SG: What advice would you give to someone who just realized their
spiritual gifts?
JA: Be patient with yourself. Any skill requires time and practice. You don’t become a master in a day or a
week. It’s a lifelong practice.
SG: What part of your gift is your favorite and why? What is your least favorite and why?
JA: I don’t have a favorite. I love to do it all. I love teaching and allowing Spirit to talk
through me. I love when Spirit is in
control. My least favorite part would be
not being able to connect with a client because they literally have a wall up. I used to blame myself but realized it wasn’t
my fault.
SG: What is the funniest thing that happened to you regarding your
gifts?
JA: Recently I saw a stinkbug on my
ceiling. I was annoyed with its buzzing
noise and spoke to it telepathically to come down and land on my hand and I
will take it outside. Immediately, the
stinkbug flew down and hit me on the face.
I picked it up and put it outside.
I was surprised at how immediate the stinkbug responded to my request!
SG: Why do you think the Creator gave us these gifts? And what are we supposed to use them for?
JA: We are here to increase the
vibrational frequency of the Earth and help the Earth ascend into a higher
plane. When you walk into a dark room,
only one light is needed to light up a room. Imagine
if many lights were turned on at once. We are here to increase the light for
all living beings on Earth.
SG: Why are we here?
JA: We are here to evolve our
souls. We chose to incarnate on Earth
and it is the school we chose to attend.
We are hopefully evolving to a more loving, knowledgeable person that
understands him or herself better. Sometimes
a soul will incarnate just to do one thing for another and that’s it, the rest
of their life is pretty mundane. Every
person is essential to what happens here.
SG: What do you wish that people knew and understood the most about
you?
JA: People think psychics can see
dead people all the time or they know everything about a person. I don’t
pick up on anything and I don’t know anything.
I only know what Spirit tells me.
Just because I can communicate with Spirit doesn’t mean I automatically
know everything about you.
SG: What do you wish the world would know and understand?
JA: What you give out comes
back. Every thought has an effect and
will come back to you. We would be more
kind and tolerant if we understood that.
I wish the politicians would understand that. War doesn’t bring peace. Peace brings peace.
SG: What do you envision the world will be like in the future?
JA: It’s up to us. It can go either way. We’re on a balancing scale and the collective
consciousness of humans will tip the balancing scale. When Jesus rode a donkey through the crowd,
they cheered him and threw palms at his feet.
The next day the same people killed him.
One day they love you and the next day they hate you. There’s no guarantee that it’s going to get
better. For example, in the presidential
race it’s not a guarantee that the best candidate will win. It’s important that lightworkers send their
light to the best candidate and to every event before it happens without a predetermined
selection.
Spirit asked her
to send love and light to the Pope selection council so they would pick the
best candidate. Now Pope Francis is
affecting the world in a wonderful way.
We should always do what Spirit
tells us to do. Some people are not
going to understand Spirit’s messages because it is not their purpose. I was a reluctant medium myself; at first I just wanted
to pass on messages from the angels.
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
I'm Back After an Eight Month Hiatus
It's been a long time since I posted!
The other day I checked my blog out and my last posting was about putting our 6 month old kitten Grace to sleep. Then silence. Life went on after that but in the past eight months I have been having more of an inner journey rather than an outer journey. I have thought a lot about posting, and have some cool interesting topics to talk about, but never got around to actually publishing them.
The good news is that we adopted a new cat. His name is Timothy and just turned five years last July. He's a great cat and I love having him around. My daughters absolutely adore him. And I made sure he was absolutely healthy!
I have been tossing around an idea for this blog. I have always been interested in hearing about other people's stories. Since this blog is focused on psychic and intuitive abilities, I've decided to start interviewing the psychics, mediums and intuitives I know about their experience and sharing it with you. I want people to know that these "gifts" are not uncommon, but part of being human. These gifted people are not unusual or so different from others, the difference is they are aware of their gifts, have chosen to incorporate them in their lives and have chosen to help others with it.
The other day I checked my blog out and my last posting was about putting our 6 month old kitten Grace to sleep. Then silence. Life went on after that but in the past eight months I have been having more of an inner journey rather than an outer journey. I have thought a lot about posting, and have some cool interesting topics to talk about, but never got around to actually publishing them.
The good news is that we adopted a new cat. His name is Timothy and just turned five years last July. He's a great cat and I love having him around. My daughters absolutely adore him. And I made sure he was absolutely healthy!
Timothy, the newest member of the family |
So stayed tuned. I am already setting up interviews and should have a lot of interesting posts coming your way!
Monday, January 5, 2015
A Hard Start to the New Year
Grace, the day we adopted her from the shelter, age 4 months |
Yes, you heard me right.
The day started out well. It was my husband's birthday so we planned to go out to breakfast and see a movie with our daughters. When we returned home, I saw Grace sitting in the kitchen. As we walked around her, she didn't move and I thought that was odd. I got down on my knees and spoke to her. Usually if I talked to her she would give me some meows and move toward me to be petted. She didn't move. Then I noticed her breathing hard. I could see her tummy move in and out with lot's effort.
Then I started to panic.
Something in me knew this was really bad. Since it was a holiday, her vet was closed so I called the local ER vet. They said to bring her in right away. When we arrived, they took her to the back to be examined and my eight year old daughter and I waited for the vet. When the vet came to us, her face demonstrated she had bad news. She said that Grace had FIP or Feline Infetious Peritonis. Most strains of the virus do not cause disease, but 5-10% of the cats with the virus develop a severe inflammatory response. Once this happens it is almost always fatal. Our poor kitten had this severe reaction and had fluid in her lungs so she was struggling to breathe.
So I knew what we needed to do.
We adopted Grace two months ago at a local shelter and both my older daughter and I already loved her very much. Now we had to say goodbye. Needless to say we cried and cried, couldn't believe that we had to leave Grace there and she would never come home with us. We said our goodbyes and when we left the hospital I started crying again.
Last picture I took of Grace |
I never ever thought my kitten would die. I planned to be her human mommy till she was an old cat. But that wasn't to be and I felt cheated.
I was pissed.
I wanted her back.
And I was pissed at Spirit and at myself. You see, I believe we come to this planet knowing what we want to experience. So, in essence, even though I don't remember it now, I agreed to it. And I couldn't understand why I would even agree to something so horrible. I felt like this was a punishment, for what I do not know.
The following day I walked around like I was going to burst into tears at any moment. By evening, I decided to to take a walk outside. During my walk I saw two cats. I was amazed since I never see cats on my walk, usually a few dogs are being walked by their owners or I see some birds or a stray squirrel. I took it as a sign that Grace was telling me she was all right. However, my anger and depression took its toll and morphed into a massive migraine by that evening.
After two hours, my migraine started to ease. As I lay in bed in the dark, I saw Grace. I asked myself, is this a memory or really Grace's spirit? Not caring, I asked to speak to Grace. And she came forward. She spoke in a grown up female voice, which surprised me. I always viewed her as a baby. She told me, "I know that you wanted me to grow old with you but I couldn't. I was too sick and could no longer stay." I knew this to be true. I just needed to accept it.
A few days later, I learned more about why I chose to experience the loss of Grace. Currently I am studying shamanism. During my last class, my classmates, teacher and I practiced doing shamanic journeys with each other. A shamanic journey is a meditative visit to one of the three spirit worlds: lower, middle, upper. This is always done with an intention, such as for healing or advice. I was lucky to have my teacher do a shamanic journey for me. She described an upper dimension world full of glass houses. She said in this place, all beings were made of light and energy (they look like columns of light to me, see #3 from this blog post for a description of what I saw). They have no physical bodies.
This is where I am from. This is my real home.
In this world, you can't hide anything. Communication is done by telepathy. And there is no such thing as touch. So this is one of the reasons why I like to come to earth, to experience touch. This makes sense to me because I am a very touchy-feely person. I love to hug and when I practice Reiki, I prefer hands on Reiki versus distance healing.
There is no loss in this upper-dimension world, we know and understand that life is forever. So this is one of the things I choose to experience here, loss, and loss of my sweet little kitten.
With every event that happens to me, whether positive or negative, it's always a learning experience. Although I miss my kitten tremendously, I understand that she was no longer able to be in the physical world. She's in a place where she belongs, at home, across the rainbow bridge.
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Staying Centered During the Emotional Storm
My ability to remain calm while in an emotionally charged situation was tested a few weeks ago. My family drove up to New York for a family funeral. We only stayed one night over at my sister's house. Since my sister and I don't see each other very much, we stayed up till 1:30 am talking. As usual, my sister offered us her bedroom for the night. Although I am not 100% comfortable with this and I suggest we can sleep in the guest bedroom, my sister always insists.
After calling it a night, I realize I forgot my cell phone charger in the living room. I creep quietly down the stairs knowing my brother in law is sleeping in the living room. In the pitch dark, I hear my brother in law's booming voice in the dark, "I hope you realize I spent all day cleaning the house for you."
My immediate response was "OK, thanks." Then the tirade started. And here's the miracle. I remained calm. I didn't get upset. I didn't take it personally. Heck, I couldn't blame him. I don't want to give my bed up to anyone. For once I didn't take criticism personally. And I didn't cry! Wow I have come a along way! Even my husband was impressed.
My sister came downstairs and calmed him down. As I was getting ready to go to bed, I bump into my brother in law in the hallway. I braced myself. He actually apologized and hugged me. I told him I was more than happy to sleep in the guest bedroom. He said he WANTED us to sleep in his room and that he didn't mean what he said.
So did he say those things because I didn't react negatively to him when he yelled at me downstairs? Perhaps. I do believe that negativity begets more negativity.
But I do feel thankful to him because he did me a favor by testing me and I passed! And I demonstrated to myself and others around me that even though I am sensitive, I can remain calm and centered in an emotional situation. Not to mention I still giggle about it every time I think of it.
After calling it a night, I realize I forgot my cell phone charger in the living room. I creep quietly down the stairs knowing my brother in law is sleeping in the living room. In the pitch dark, I hear my brother in law's booming voice in the dark, "I hope you realize I spent all day cleaning the house for you."
My immediate response was "OK, thanks." Then the tirade started. And here's the miracle. I remained calm. I didn't get upset. I didn't take it personally. Heck, I couldn't blame him. I don't want to give my bed up to anyone. For once I didn't take criticism personally. And I didn't cry! Wow I have come a along way! Even my husband was impressed.
My sister came downstairs and calmed him down. As I was getting ready to go to bed, I bump into my brother in law in the hallway. I braced myself. He actually apologized and hugged me. I told him I was more than happy to sleep in the guest bedroom. He said he WANTED us to sleep in his room and that he didn't mean what he said.
So did he say those things because I didn't react negatively to him when he yelled at me downstairs? Perhaps. I do believe that negativity begets more negativity.
But I do feel thankful to him because he did me a favor by testing me and I passed! And I demonstrated to myself and others around me that even though I am sensitive, I can remain calm and centered in an emotional situation. Not to mention I still giggle about it every time I think of it.
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